Mary Beth Hines, Winter at a Summer House
First Love
I chose you
all onyx shine
and glittering
silver keys, secret
hollows, flared
bell mouth, you,
my girlhood
B-flat clarinet,
nickel-plated
ligature, sweet
reeds splintering
my aspirational
embouchure,
so many
extravagant words
to curl my moody
tongue around.
My very first
infatuation lingered
an entire decade—
scales, études,
fantasias, and
Mr. Maier’s weekly
lessons that went
beyond arpeggios
to breath control,
improvisation, trill
keys, espressivo.
We lasted through
the seventies, climaxing
with that Helliwell solo
on Breakfast in America,
afterwards nowhere
meaningful left to go.